EMOTIONIS

    by Stefano Bernardi


    SOMMARIO: A Vulcan girl's first, fatal, encounter with something which should not exist.
    DISCLAIMER: Star Trek is the property of Paramount Studios, the following a non-profit work of fan fiction. No resemblance to any individual, living or dead, is intended.
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    Emotions

    I am upset. I did not think I could experience such a feeling, my training should not allow me.
    Maybe my discipline has a flaw. I am just seven years old, after all, but this does not change the fact.
    I am upset.
    It was a simple ceremony, all went as it was expected: our families committed themselves long ago. Our bonding was foreseen.
    An ancient Vulcan tradition demands that marriages are arranged by families and the would be mates must, when they are seven, be linked through a mind meld.
    So that, when the time comes, they will meet for the koon-ut-kal-if-fee.
    Everything was going as expected, everything went as expected ...
    But I was struck by unfamiliar feelings, about which nobody did ever tell me anything. Maybe nobody knows about them.
    That mental touch, its warmth, the burning torrent which flowed from it and that overwhelmed me.
    That young Vulcan, Spock, he gave me sensations, feelings ...
    emotions!
    Now I know what they are, emotions.
    No, it is not possible, we cannot feel emotions, we MUST not feel emotions, but ...
    But they are inside me, by now. The seed which has been implanted is going to root.
    I will have to hide it, to inhibit, to suppress it, if possible.

    ***

    Stonn. I do not understand why I feel attracted by him.
    I am linked to Spock, he is my bondmate.
    Nevertheless something compels me toward Stonn.
    Something? I cannot fool myself: the seed is sprouting. The emotions that young Spock gave me are waking up and they are escaping my control.
    Stonn is unbonded, and it is natural and logical for him to look around for a mate, but he knows that I am committed.
    Nevertheless he wants me. By now, I am convinced that he is perceiving the emotion I cannot help to feel, and this is unknowingly driving him to me.
    The time is coming. I sense that Spock is getting back to Vulcan, I must find a solution.
    The sole solution is the challenge, hoping that Stonn will survive.

    ***

    Here is Spock.
    He brought friends with him: two Humans!
    Here is the solution: he will fight against his Captain.
    If Spock loses, the Captain will turn me down and I will have Stonn.
    If Spock wins, he will turn me down, because I chose the challenge, and even if he will not, he has to leave, anyway, and I will have his estates and Stonn will still be here qui.
    Logic. Logic always prevails over emotions.